In the Media We Trust

Ought to be the slogan for the leftist campaign who control it.


A Common Misconception: ADHD, ADD, & Adderall

A Common Misconception: ADHD, ADD, & Adderall


More often than not I hear of the general consensus which has conclusively deducted the characteristics of ADHD& ADD into a category otherwise known as disruptive. I am here to tell you that in my experience as an adult with ADHD that the common dialogue concerning said learning disability is a bit disconcerting. For one, rarely are kids or adults with this condition “disruptive”- not in the conventional sense. Contrary to popular belief the poster child of ADD/ADHD is not buzzing around the classroom disrupting students and teachers alike in an either uncontrollable or inconsolable manner; the child with ADD/ADHD is not starving for attention, in all actuality. They more often than not go unnoticed, you might have noticed something, but never could put your finger on it, though unmistakably you did notice something…  as a teacher I have seen ONE. I have seen one child out of roughly 100 display the characteristics of ADD/ADHD… yet, in that pool of children can you guess how many others mistakenly believe to have ADD/ADHD? … By the dozens… Think about it, there has always been a troublesome child that is hungry– starving for attention– who disrupts the classroom by intentionally acting out of order for attention; they display conduct disorder which is behavioral. ADD/ADHD is NOT a behavioral disorder, it is NOT behavioral, period. The general understanding of ADD/ADHD only shows how little people actually know or care to know about the condition, if you want to call it that. It is not depression, it Is not bipolar, it is not a mental illness. It is not a behavioral “problem,” which is to say that the behavior displayed by those with ADD/ADHD is not problematic. Some research shows that people with ADD/ADHD are said to have higher IQs- perhaps that is because it is an intellectual problem. Seemingly both children and adults are quiet, aloof, and in their own world— yet, if you were to ask one to tell you what was going on, you might be surprised by how attentive they are actually to what is being said and what is going on around them. Why the surprise? Because they do not appear to be paying attention or listening- most often they are staring at the books on the book shelf or at the sky, as in to day dream- day dreamers… their genius lies in the fact that they can hold two thoughts and/or ideas in their mind at the same time. Intellectually multi-tasking, not to be confused with physically multi-tasking. “The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in mind at the same time and still retain the ability to function.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald

Secondly, Adderall and Ritalin act as sedatives to make a person who may not be as aware more alert of themselves and the world around them to help them control their quiet disruptions. What are those quiet disruptions? Nail picking, zoning out, fixating on the books in the room or otherwise distraction, speaking without thinking, having no filter, saying what is on their mind without thinking about what they are going to say first, to name a few… and that is just at one end of the spectrum. Pay close attention to the word spectrum, for ADD/ADHD is not a one size fits all. Diagnoses and the variations within the learning disability itself are as vast as those of Asperger’s and Autism, with the crucial misunderstanding that ADD/ADHD is a behavioral problem controlled by stimulants, that is not the case. The purpose of this article is not to blame or accuse but rather to gently inform the reader that it is unacceptable to diagnose the “problem-child” as having ADD/ADHD. It is to impart knowledge on what actually constitutes the learning disability and to clarify that it is not primarily behavioral. The loud, disobedient, disruptive, quarrelsome, ornery child people have mistakenly come to know as having ADD/ADHD is nowhere near the quiet child who looks at the books on the shelves in the library who volunteers when asked to demonstrate an End-Game in Chess and knows the play-by-play, piece-for-piece by heart, and displays a deep sense of sincerity and compassion when corrected (they do not talk back to, challenge, or question authority figures). Further, they demonstrate a deeper understanding of the game than would otherwise be common of a child of his/her young age. It is surprising that this child is the highest achiever in the class, but by no common standard- strictly by their own understanding- which was not memorized. Theirs is a deep-rooted understanding. The former, the ornery and disobedient child most likely will not know the class material, and will especially not understand the class material on a deeper fundamental level than would be common for a person of their age or experience…

Lastly, they are calm. They do not challenge others and do not expect others to challenge them. It has been shown that marijuana acts similarly to the stimulants Ritalin and Adderall in those with ADD/ADHD and it has been proven that marijuana helps them focus and get higher grades. If anything, they might be mistaken for a marijuana smoker. The mistaken understanding of these learning disabilities does not do anyone any good; not those with actual learning disabilities, nor those with behavioral disorders which have come to be known as demonstrative of ADD/ADHD… there has been a cultural misdiagnosis and it needs to stop.

It is all about perspective, right?…

Well, I suppose it all depends on who is asking, but, I do find it very interesting how the media blares so loudly with a one-sided point-of-view that it does a great job at silencing any and all voices outside the sphere of its megaphone. And, by great I mean I am clearly being facetious. When we speak of such things as fairness, equality, and justice for all, it is quite ironic, isn’t it? Ironic that such values which are pertinent to the integrity and dignity of America would be taken away from some, and given to others?… That such topics would silence the voices of others while amplifying only their own as to, dare I say, segregate…

Fairness, respect, dignity, equality, sovereignty, and justice ought to be all-inclusive, don’t you think?

Or should the blame shift, find its next target, and then pin him as America’s next top racist.

I have no “white guilt”, because I am not and never have been a racist person. I have not been racist against any race; black, white, brown, yellow, dark brown, light brown, light, dark, or mocha, etc… nor do I find it acceptable to say that ALL [white men, especially], ALL [republicans, especially], ALL [white people], ALL [trump supporters], ALL [non-leftists], ALL [non-Obama supporters], ALL [non-democrats], ALL [non-liberals], ALL [white, republicans, especially] white, republicans, especially, are spawns of America’s next top racist…

There is no arguing with the media, though, because if you try you will go down in history as the biggest racist ever.

All in the name of equality? and, JUSTICE [FOR ALL]. In all fairness, with all due respect isn’t that a bit hypocritical? Isn’t that creating the same prejudice against that which the media so loudly speaks? a.k.a. Racism.

All white, republicans are racist.

Are they now?



Are all white, republicans racist?

Are all white, republicans racist?

Are all white, republicans racist?

ARE ALL white, republicans racist?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I, for one, AM CERTAINLY NOT RACIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







So-and-so is hereby awarded a “30-day [Emergency] Substitute Teaching Permit” issued by the California Commission on Teacher Credentialing

In 2011, I decided to put my English degree to use (or so I had hoped) by getting a substitute teaching permit. And, oh, how easy did people make it sound, “just get your substitute teaching permit”, “why don’t you just substitute teach?”…

After failing the writing portion of the California Basic Education Skills Test (CBEST), I had to pay ($70-$130) to re-take the whole thing. One word of advice, when they ask you to write about a charismatic person do NOT write about Charlie Sheen and back it up by evidence of his likeability despite his cheating   womanizing ways. The answer they are looking for would probably be J.F.K., for example, or any otherwise popularly known historical figure… writing is so subjective… I re-took it. And I passed.

After that, I paid $69.00 for a Live Scan which is for a dual fingerprint background check by the FBI and Department of Justice. Then, I applied for the 30-day Emergency Substitute Teaching permit for another $86.00. At that time I asked myself, “self, can you really see yourself substitute teaching?” and as I imagined myself in front of an elementary level class, and slowly shrunk into a Cheerio-sized person, hiding, and covering my head underneath the desk as I respectively got booed in my mind’s imagination in said situation.

I did not put to use that permit.

In 2013, I boarded an airplane to teach in China. I was overseas until 2015 and though I had only planned to teach in China, taught in Hong Kong, and Japan as well. I had a very rich experience teaching overseas. I did not have summers off for three consecutive years and so I finally figured that I had four years total of teaching experience considering that I taught for three summers straight.


When I returned in 2015, I got a job at an international college teaching English as a Second Language to college-level students, where I worked for about a year and a half before getting laid-off due to low-student enrollment. I have not taught in exactly one year in four days from now (9/5/2017).

Meanwhile, I have had three financial disasters, I am still undergoing one. I got unemployment benefits, worked seasonally at Staples, and then became a Life-Insurance agent. The company I worked for did not pay me so I have a case with the Department of Labor that is currently undergoing review and the first conference is set for next month.

In the meantime, I renewed that substitute teaching permit… after finally getting it renewed $106 later…

When I got my Life Insurance agent license in the interim, in between then and now, I did not throw my hands up in the air at each and every step, crying, moaning and groaning, fed up at each step, the first obstacle, the whole way through. Quite to the contrary, the day I passed my test with the California Department of Insurance was the proudest I have ever been of myself in my entire life. I studied hard, and I worked even harder. I was fascinated by the field, and it sparked my interest on many levels, so I felt that I had finally found my purpose. However, until the case comes to a conclusion I do not want to seek a Life Insurance agent position.

I do not want to substitute teach, but I will.

The problem is this, there are too many obstacles. Every document has to be in a PDF, I have Word.

I do not have THREE letters of recommendation, in fact, I do not even have ONE.

I have a resume, but not in PDF format.

By the time I get to a job that I can actually apply to because it only requires a resume, my substitute teaching permit, and a negative TB test, it has been an hour. An hour of reading job description, and job requirements, after job description and job requirements to get to a page where I cannot upload the document in Word format, at which point I throw my hands up in the air and yell in frustration, “I have no desire whatsoever to substitute teach, NONE WHATSOEVER, ABSOLUTELY NONE!”

And it IS upsetting, because for not even wanting to stupid substitute teach, even now with 4 unpleasant, dreadful years of teaching experience under my belt, the hamster wheel of paired with the San Diego Unified School District maze which also appears to be a dead-end to NOWHERE is frustrating. I spin my wheels, waste my time, and at the end of the day get nowhere near any closer today than I was yesterday in the run-around of the wicked web which has me going in circles in the same damn search request for a substitute teaching position. Fed up? Yes, absolutely. Considering what it took to get just the substitute teaching permit itself, yes, it is a bit disappointing. No more disappointing is having to use what I have to fall back on until I seek out how to sell life insurance again. Meaning, substitute teaching is my back-up plan. It is not my first choice, and not even really a 2nd, or 3rd.

According to the California Commission for Teacher Credentialing, I have met the requirements to substitute teach in this state which is why I have been permitted to do so. With such a shortage of substitute teachers, one might think it would be advantageous to simplify the process, especially when considering that substitute teachers have to go through MUCH MORE background, investigation, and testing than do “credentialed” teachers. And some of us have gained in four years what it would take others four decades to accomplish.

The sites make it too easy to give up. I sent a letter last week, and still have not received a response in regards to what they consider to be a “credentialed” substitute teacher. Are they meaning to tell me that there are teachers who are credentialed looking for SUBSTITUTE teaching positions? Well, THAT’S STUPID! DON’T YOU THINK?

Over it.



Left Wing Supremacy

A Letter From the Left:

Dear Government,

Tell me what my rights are: I have voted for you, I have given you power to decide for me what my rights are, I have voted for your laws, and your legislation; thus, I have voted in your dictatorship over my freedom as an individual.


Dear Media,

Tell me how to think: I voted for more government, more legislation, more laws; thus, I have taken away my own personal freedom as an individual.

Tell me what to think: I do not know how to think for myself, I do not know what to think, and I am not capable of formulating my own opinion as an educated and informed individual. I lack interest in the topics discussed in the news, therefore, I do not know much about them; thus, I am only able to regurgitate what I hear from you.

I am angry: I do not know why, I do not know at who or about what, but I do know that I need a reason to continue to justify my anger- and you continue to give me a reason to be so.

I have a loss of identity: I do not know who I would be if I was not angry, therefore, I need a source to fuel my anger and you do just that. Without my anger, I do not who I am, what I believe, or what I stand for.

I am by the media and for the media, even though this same source has been at the root of corruption, manipulative and brainwashing tactics since it’s beginning.

I have voted for an incorruptible machine to control me, my every move, and even my destiny. I have voted for the machine to think for me and tell me who I am, how I feel, and what I stand for. Without the machine, I feel I would vanish because my identity and sole purpose would be lost.

Without the government, who would I be?

Without the media, what would I think?



With Love Forever,

A mass majority public opinion (that happens to be coming from the left)


P.S.- Anyone who does not think like me, or feel like me, is public enemy #1, which is why I suffer from left-wing supremacy and have become everything that I claim to hate.